Ram Goat
In the last scene I had the misfortune of losing my good friend Hamish who I trusted, through my own fault. It was an experience that I will never forget as it taught me to trust and give people the benefit of the doubt.
It’s been two weeks since Hamish spoke those fateful words to me and the news of Angel seeing Stephan. My life was very uneventful, boring and in some ways, meaningless! In one month I loss the girl I was secretly in love with and the one friend I had a great connection with. So life was uninteresting to say the least after all that.
To deal with the pain I decided to try to reconnect with my mum who up until now was very indifferent and generally unconcerned with my social and romantic interests. She would just laugh when I mentioned Angel’s name or shrugged her shoulders about my new found friendship with Hamish. Of course I knew, I was in for quite a time when I began spending more time around her. As predicted she kept badgering me on why I’m not out with Hamish or chasing that silly girl, she’d sometimes say. I did the best I could to keep the whole thing from her but as they say, ‘Mother’s know their kids’. She kept on hounding me for answers until I broke down and spilled the beans. I told her everything.
When mum heard about what Angel had done to me her immediate response was to laugh and say how stupid I was to part with her hard earned money to win favours from a tramp! I was so upset I could barely hold back the tears. She even threatened to withhold my upcoming allowance as punishment for being so stupid. But it didn’t stop there, she then told me an old Guyanese saying which went something like this, ‘You don’t fatten cow for another butcher to slaughter!’ and something about ‘fat fowl’ I didn’t quite get. Basically the whole thing was my fault, I was stupid to fall in love with a girl who was too pretty for me; I was stupid to fall in love with a girl who was too smart for me; I was stupid to think that Angel would ever love a stupid boy like me and I was stupid to think a pretty girl like Angel wouldn’t already have a smart and handsome boyfriend. I felt rotten, down trodden and deflated…another confirmation to me at the time that Life Sucks!! Ram Goat
