It always seemed like every time I came close to getting something I really want it would be taken away from me…I was so fed up of this happening to me over and over again that I thought it was what was going to characterise the rest of my life.
Angel was no different when she disappeared. Again I thought her even speaking to me must have been another cosmic mistake; just another stupid practical joke!
I hadn’t seen her for two days since she asked me about my lunch plans and if I say I hadn’t thought about her all that time, I’d be lying. She occupied my thoughts day and night to the point my homework and household chores suffered. Mom wasn’t too pleased with me and fretted and fussed over my poor attention to things. Somehow I secretly hoped she’d ask me what was up and I’d have the opportunity to speak to her about what I was feeling for Angel. I couldn’t understand it and had no friends to discuss the subject.
On day three I saw her leaving the drama class and I just had to say something…anything to get her to notice me and maybe have a conversation…I was desperate to be close to her; to look into those big brown eyes; and hear her smooth melodic voice. Nothing seemed to be important anymore except the thought of being in her space…What was this thing I was feeling but couldn’t understand and couldn’t depend on my parents or friends to explain to me.
Anyway I approached her and she was somewhat pleased that I found the courage to step up to her and immediately motioned me to the cafeteria. On arriving she said she was thirsty and would like a soda…Naturally I thought that was my cue to get busy and impress my new friend. I got her the soda she said she liked and watched her sip it…to my surprise and dismay she spun on her heels and scooted off to her waiting friends I hadn’t seen in the distance, without a thank you or a smile…it was at that point all I thought of was…Life Sucks!! Ram Goat
